secondGemini

reasons

it's funny how it goes.  so here's the thing....

i know i'm harping on it... but it all comes back around it seems.  so, this apartment i didn't get i'm totally over it and that's just how it goes.  as i mentioned in the post below.

what amazes me though, is that it makes me believe even more in the idea that things happen for a reason.  when i was denied that place i was furious.  so much so, that i NEEDED to rid my insides of the anger.  some people go for a walk, run, they drink or whatever.  i however, picked up my guitar and had at it.  i tore into that thing and banged out some athabasca thrift songs with all my might.  it helped.

but then i stumbled onto a chord i'd never played before and just flowed into another new chord, and another and another.  before i knew it, i had a new song, a heap of new chords in my arsenal and a new found approach to songwriting.

which brings me to....

if i HAD got that apartment, i would have been organizing the move.  booking the van, changing addresses, calling shaw, visa, telus and everyone else that needs contacting when you're doing a move.  i wouldn't have had time to pick up my guitar,  let alone expand my mind and become an overall better musician.

and what really makes me think....

is that if i had known this would have happened, and the universe paused my life and presented me with the choice of this apartment, or a new favourite composition and another notch up on the musician skill post.... i'm pretty damn sure i'd pick what i got.

funny that.

deep breaths

since the last post.... i've cooled my jets. 

i was furious about the way that went down.  holy cow was i ever mad.  but after i accepted it, i realized how caught up i got with what wasn't going my way.   and when that happens, usually... well, hopefully sometime soon after, you see or hear something that makes you throw on the brakes and take a minute to realize the truth. 

i have it pretty sweet.

dwelling on what you don't have... is one of the most emotionally toxic things you can do to yourself.  it's a nasty downward spiral that will take you down with it.... if you're not able to snap out of it in mid spiral, and give it the boot.

sour taste

goddamit.  i knew it.  overconfidence will bite you in the ass.  so as it turns out, that apartment was scooped out from under me because the property managers were able to get in touch with someone else's references a few minutes sooner than mine.

not only does my timing have to be precise... but my work managers - past and present, along with previous landlords all have to be available to answer an unknown call, or i don't have a new place to live.

so like this cup of coffee.... the continued hunt for an acceptable place to live is leaving a horrible taste in my mouth.

i HATE this game.

creepy barnacle face

it kinda looks like "Wall-E" if he was recovered from the Titanic.

today i'm feeling optimistic.  i found an apartment online while i was at work last night, and was allover it.  i think i was the first to call, and was definitely the first to see it this morning.  paperwork is done, deposit cheque delivered.... now all i can do is wait.  as always i made a great impression.... but it's not up to me at this point.  i've agreed to all their terms (like i have a choice) but they're going to continue to show the suite.  i get the impression i'm first in line.

it's a concrete building right downtown.  south facing, 3rd floor, galley kitchen, lots of closet space etc.  it's a happy medium between an old apartment building and a new condo complex.

i'll be content there by myself.

it's not like i don't enjoy having roomates.  i do.  but, i've had to move out of three really great condos because of my roomates circumstance.  bah.  i could have stayed for a few years at any of those buildings. 

but what can you do?

queen of saanich

on our way home from the wedding last weekend... we caught the very last sailing of the queen of saanich before they retired it.  which makes sense really.  because as soon as we got upstairs from the cardeck, it was very apparent that this boat was OLD-school.  which i loved really.  it took me back to being a kid, running around with my brothers, on our way to vancouver for some reason.  slamming quarters into the arcade, begging mom for more money so i could get something from the vending machines... and dad telling us to quit bugging mom.  ahhh.  the good old days.

the captain made an announcement about what was happening with the ship and it was honestly heartfelt.  you could hear it in his voice that he had a connection with that ship.  he was speaking from his gut, and was going to miss the queen of saanich.

"aaargh! why?!"

.... said the maple leafs fan to himself, as he hung his head in utter shame over the bc ferries side railing.

"we.... just.... suck.... so.... bad!"

Vancouver 4   Toronto 2

the rivet

last week i went out for a little photogroffee with a buddy from work.  we hit up the point hope shipyard on sunday.  usually it's gated off, but somebody forgot to lock the door... so we had full access to all of the industrial, rusty goodness.  i got a couple of great shots.  the sarcastic rope ladder being one of them, followed  by the rivet.

i'm off to van. for a friends wedding this morning.  should be good.  another chance to catch up with some people i rarely get to see.  i'm taking my camera and hope to get some good shots.  weddings are tough though, as the lighting is usually pretty dim or just bad.  i don't have any fancy low light lenses, and seeing as how i'm a guest... i will be indulging in a few bevvies.  and shots just get shakier from there.

should be a good weekend though.  after the wedding on sunday... laura and i have a few new songs to finish up, then i think i'm going to check out the new bond flick monday night,   followed by another photogroffee outing tuesday evening. 

who knows what i'll come back with.

rope ladder

get it?

Holy November

it's hard to believe that we're well into the 11th month of this year.  christmas is going to rear it's ugly head sooner rather than later.  i'm ok with it though.  i'm still getting used to the idea of ANOTHER move, another transition in life.  but it keeps me on my toes.  i kinda like looking for places... but it sucks when i know that most likely i'll be moving into a place less awesome than the one i'm in.  however.... i will deal.

it's been a long while since i got out with cammy.  well, that's not entirely true actually.  let me correct myself.... it's been a long time since i got out with cammy and came back with some quality images.

so this evening will consist of:  sorting photos, playing in photoshop, pizza, torrents and refreshing CNN.com to get the scoop on the fate of our big stick swinging neighbours to the south.